Just start - getting over the first hurdle

Ohhhhhh, there's so much to do. I get through one task just to identify more tasks that need completing. I mean I'm breaking down the tasks continually as I would advise anyone to do but I just am so over adulting right now LOL! It's no wonder so many people often burnout when just keeping oneself alive often feels a chore. It's tiring.

I've mastered the art of not burning out myself and it is really about being attuned to myself and my needs. I don't call it burnout anymore as I get the rest time in before the burnout has a chance to occur. Every now and then I just test it to see if my techniques are effective and stop doing things and subsequently burnout and have to remind myself not to break the formula! I've tested it recently and the formula is getting back up into swing!

And so here we are. Getting over that first hurdle. I love writing. In typical ADHD style I got another degree before I found this calling in life. Journalism & Broadcasting. I should've known at the time it wasn't going to stick as the media has it's narrative (I was young and naïve, I knew no better at this time), but it doesn't take away from my love to write.

I got stuck, I procrastinated and I was living in the fear. It stopped me just being here and present with the screen and the keyboard; just writing what comes to mind - thought dumping. Like I said I would. Not that I feel guilty about that. I mean I say own your actions - so I do and I did, every time I considered writing a blog over the last few months and just didn't.

So as per usual, in true keeping with Lola as a therapist, I had a word with myself LOL. It has to be done from time to time. It had to be done recently - a few times. I have to keep it real with myself. I write for you my readers, but I also write for myself.

Sometimes we can be the only barrier to our own happiness, and I reminded myself I didn't have to be. I just had to do differently. Move away from not doing the things of joy and move towards those glimmer moments; even if temporary and fleeting. Move away from not living in a way that promotes the lifestyle I want to live and move towards the actions that support that.

One.

Step.

At.

A.

Time.

And wow. What a difference it makes... One small change. The power of the mind!

My neurodiversity continues to juxtapose my actions, in that push/pull affect. We have an order versus disorder complex in full swing but I'm swinging with it, which is probably why I feel a bit dizzy with so much to do at times.

Continually working to my strengths. Improving on my weaker spots.

Every day is a lesson.

Every moment in the day matters.

Resting.

Working.

Connecting.

Learning.

Creativity.

I need it all - getting the balance is key.

So I learnt my lesson, testing out me little theory about me burning out LOL. I just need to do. It doesn't need to be Monday. I don't have to reset. Maintenance is key. And if I notice I'm slipping, I just need to do one small thing differently that keeps me working towards my goals - life & wellbeing.